Wifey is that Me.

        So lets see some things that are on my mind.  How does someone you consider to be a decent friend or at least a good friend not tell you they were getting or got married.  I mean to find out that friend got married on facebook because he made and offhand comment about his wife was completely strange for me.  I mean I think my feelings are a little hurt behind this.  This has led to the further development of what is wifey material.  I tend to think that I am wifey material but since I am 33 and nobody's wife sources seem to disagree. :(

I pretty much know that no one reads my blogs so I'm going to write in any manner I see fit,  but back to topic what is wifey material or what is not.

1. Do looks have anything to do with wife material?  Obviously not I am freaking gorgeous and this is not just a personal biased thing, people stop me and tell me I am beautiful all the time.  Also I can list millions of beautiful women who are single. Further evidence is that ugly and unattractive people have husbands i.e. Honey Boo Boo's mom.  Yeah thats a little depressing that the chunky, trailer park trash, baby momma who can't pronounce a decent grammetically correct sentence has a man and I don't.  So conclusion looks have nothing to do with wifey material.
2. Does Weight have anything to do with being chosen to be somebodys's wife.  I'm gonna say yes because I pretty much feel that this is my one major flaw.  I got a cute face but I'm beyond thick in the waist.  And bump what you heard I'm not attracted to chunky and unattractive and since I've gained weight (ugly mofos) think they have a chance.  Where did the ugly guy get all his self esteem from.  Yeah it must have been Lil Wayne, Puffy, Rick Ross, 2 Chainz........ to many to name.  The difference being though is that those dudes have lots of money and with money comes a certain amount of swag.   Also there is unprecedented divorces where people claim that the other person is not who they married or wives who are not feeling as attractive after having babies.  So yes weight matters depending on the kind of spouse you want to attract.  I don't like mud puppies so I best be losing some of these tons of fun.
3. I have no reasoning for this only to say is attitude does matter.  My attitude is very straight forward, blunt and in your face.  I put on a tough girl facade and just wait for someone to break it down.  I will stick you before you can focus on all the cracks in my shell.  This clearly puts up a barrier.  And this definitely is contributing factor in wifey material, but to change doesn't seem like me, so hmmmmmmnmm i would have to give up these points and hope that I can earn more points in another catagory.
4. Loyalty, not sure if this appropriate or not.  Of course you want your spouse to be loyal but will you really know until you date her.  No no, I disagree with myself already loyalty is a big factor.  Married men are always coming at me because I am a single attractive female. Sassy freaky and pretty.  In my conversation I am very unimhibited.  So men want to fuck me but they don't want to wife.  Clearly they don't want a woman who will do to them what they will do to their wives.  The want to believe that their misses will be faithful (real or not its the perception.)  So that being said I am loyal to the bone, but that is not the perception that I give off.  So must be more aware of the ish that comes out of my mouth.

Well I am sure there are many more criteria that can be looked at but at the end of the day, I'm going to keep being me and hope that some guy will recognize me for the truly awesome person that I am.

Oral Pleasure

I have gotten 3 offers for oral sex.  Men try to act like there not thirsty but why offer to stick your face into womans sugar that you really don't know.  I mean what if I had a disease and there just willing to assume that I don't.  Makes me think I don't ever want to kiss them, if they go around offer to eat the coochy of every pretty girl they know.  I'm super lonely but I am thirsty enough to let anybody play with my kitty.  One gentlemen even said I could get a gift card, what the what do I have hoe written on my forehead.  I want to know how come I'm never offered the wifey position.  I don't hoe even though sometimes I act like I do.  I'm just a firm believer that a woman has a right to do all the same things as a man.  I'm bruttaly honest to the point of scary.  Okay thats enough of my rant.

Goals

There are many things on my mind this morning, the unfinished book, the  career I don't have, the mistakes that I make.  Do they matter yes, are they everything "no."  So after running around the office and making all me stops for my morning inspiration, I found it pinned to the back of a co-workers wall.

My co-worker/friend had created a vision board and a goal list and after some discussion and thought I realized I needed these things to.  Amazingly enough once I started each one of these projects the things that I wanted to accomplish and that I envision came quite easily.

First my Goal list goes like this
1. Learn to twerk (yes I want to shake my ass in a round and round circle)  I'm actually most excited about this goal.
2. Career Change (boring and self explanatory)
3. Lose Weight (broken record)
4. Better School for my Son (will accomplish)
5. Figure out what I like (mind-blowing)
okay there are the goals I want to accomplish right nothing to big nothing to serious but the items on this list look like incoquerable mountains, when I no that they are mole hills.  So what is the obstacle basically stopping me. ........  Motivation/Focus.  How do I get motivation or focus of course I want the results but they have always been a fantasy not a reality.  Moving into reality and being happy will come with the completion of goals.

Well that is my list now motivation is my delimma.  Lets see how this journey will go.

Frustrated

    Hey loves,
The truth is today is not what I thought it would be.  I am the only person who has a law degree and can't use it.  I mean really I'm so stuck in life that I just can't get out.  Also the Disney channel gets on my nerves, but thats the sacrifice you make when you have kids, you give up your good tv time for kid friendly television.  But really i find that all kids shows teach kids to lie steal and some trickery.  I mean of course the learn a lesson but I simply don't like it.

Flash Gordon out until tomorrow my loves

Oh My (Poetry)

Oh my its all I can say, I met you and from the first you stole my breath
I did not see you for what you were worth, but I took heed of what was before me eyes
You gave me honesty in abundance, because its who you were
You gave my body adoration , because it was what I needed
You fed my mind not with just compliments but intelligence and for that I say Oh my
I look at you and see what I forgot I wanted
You remind me that its their maybe just hard to find
You showed me that there is a complimentary force that exist for me
You make me say Oh my

Why do name tags say Hello my name is ……, I mean if someone want to know my name just ask and well if your not inclined to ask then should you really no my name. Also we all have a voice in our head in our hearts whatever a voice that helps tell you right from wrong, my question is how many of these voices do you actually have and what sex are they, I mean do you give the voices in your head identities. Currently I am at work trying to find something to do, I have nothing to do and while there are more efficient uses of my time I can’t leave work without losing pay. But what if I am advanced and I have already done my 8 hours of work today, I do the same job in 5 hours in what it use to take one man 5 days and I get more done on the job than he ever did. He set the bar low I perform and exceed standards and still have lots of down time. So does anybody have any idea of what I can do with the down time? I feel like life should come with a hand book I mean really, sitting here day after day I truly understand why people go crazy, this is plum insane and I cannot in good sanity (which is questionable) cannot knowingly encourage anyone to seek a job in government. All government when you get down to it has turned out to be pretty inefficient, don’t get me wrong I love police and fireman when something go wrong but do we constantly need to add to their ranks year after year, when crime has not increased, when there main focus is providing a continuing revenue stream for a cracked judicial system. I mean really I want my policeman solving murders not bothering me about vehicle renewal. Any whom back to government workers, they the government, basically force you into a know win situation. I mean it’s not like you can negotiate the terms of your employment and turning down a job in this economy is ludicrous. Also there is this manager that constantly walks by my area and he mentioned that I might want to change my screen or stop being on facebook. Really, I understand what he’s saying but A why are you always looking at my computer screen, my screen is not in your direct line of vision and if your monitoring my computer time shouldn’t you monitor everyone else’s who is actually in your department, which your not. Hey maybe you could stop stomping around and go do your job, hummmmmm. Again all my 40 hour a week work gets done and I do it as soon as I hit my desk so what if in my spare time I chose to become enlightened on the computer. I mean you could let me go home and get my cleaning done or better yet you could let me work from home and then you would never have to see me but no this makes to much sense. Oh why can I do my job so fast, well because for one I have a computer and I no how to use it efficiently, I know how to type, therefore modern technology has taken the previous 8 hour a day job and reduced it to half the time if the person is efficient and sense working out of my job description has done nothing but lead to disastrous circumstances I don’t help others anymore at work. Hummmmmmmmm, Another day.

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Enuff

I call and out and shout and speak as loud as the wind in the twister
But its not enough for you.
I write you and tell you all that is on my mind and in my soul
But its not enough for you.
I dance and bend my body to the rhythm, to the beat, I even stand on my toes
But its not enough for you.
My soul decides to sing a song to stroke your ego
But its not enough for you
My soul decides to face you head on and look into your eyes
But its not enough for you
My soul decides its had enough of showing off for you my soul is weary foolin around with you my soul gives up trying to be enough for you.
SRJ